I have been counting down the days until I come to the U.S. for my sister Cate's wedding on June 13th for about 4 months. About 3 weeks ago I was excited to go but frustrated because I felt I would be leaving right in the thick of things which might cause problems with my projects' progress. Two weeks ago I was overstressed and hospitalized and my trip to the U.S. turned from a frustration to a goal.
Since I came here and started to work on projects my sense of urgency has transformed. After talking with the people and observing the site I determined what we both saw as problemed areas I could help with and found some people who agreed with me and wanted to help change these things. After establishing that, I (very naively) thought that we would quickly come up with a plan, get funding, and implement the plan, and then things would work perfectly. Nothing has gone "according to plan" but I guess a lot of life is that way.
Initially I was distraught about leaving for vacation since I felt that my projects would come to a screeching halt without. But then I realized that if I had never come then these projects would never have been started in the first place. The schools and community spent a long time without these changes and they can wait a little longer for them; I am alright with that.
I am anxious to hear how things progressed without your being there. I hope you can keep your stress levels down so you don't end up in the hospital again. You are one person and will definitely make an impact with however much you can accomplish. While it is good to set high expectations for yourself, there is much beyond your control. You are realizing that each step of the way. You are doing an amazing job and will leave a great legacy.
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